i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find mys-find mys- find mys- i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find myself (by myself) i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find myself i've been tryna find myself find my find myself i've been tryna find myself by myself this ain’t a promise it’s a warning feeling so bad like after i’m performing wondering, questioning myself, did i do it well? validating myself in the depths of hell tryna, cross the ways for my own protection stick my neck out for my own perfection you might deal with your own rejection convince yourself that it’s natural selection nothing natural about me nothing actual about me nothing natural about me nothing natural about me nothing natural about me nothing actual about me find my- find myself nothing natural about me anywho, what you do why you don’t want me natural myself, while it’s quarter past three singing in the street, i don’t do it for free sipping on this drink while this life’s easy can’t wish for much, i’m not greedy put myself to sleep, while this life’s dreamy need myself some wishes, go and see your genie because in this new life, nothing comes freely nothing comes freely anymore nothing comes freely anymore nothing comes freely out the door nothing comes freely anymore nothing comes freely? y'all don't see me y'all don't see me

welcome 2009, that’s how we do it you’re just here cus i know you’re going through it so try to live your best while you try to pursue it current life is bad and you should try your best to prove it welcome 2009, that’s how we do it you’re just here cus i know you’re going through it so try to live your best while you try to pursue it current life is bad and you should try your best to prove it you gotta live but you can’t do nada this ain’t a trilogy this a whole ass saga while i’m here i’m just dying of thirst and you wake up in the morning just to see how it hurts you wake up in the morning just to see your louis purse and you realize something, it’s that beauty in the universe how we can live but we can’t crash the cars not just only now but we are one of the stars open up your mind and then you’ll see your memoirs it’s that time you thought about somebody behind bars i’m saying that we don’t need the luxury going back to plastic forks for cutlery imma feed my friends we don’t go hungry we gon be alright and that’s the summary back when our lessons were just compulsory i was on a new length of discovery finding out some shit that i didn’t wanna know like the fact the phone box is something you don’t outgrow scraping down deep in the bottle of medicine just so he can try to get his last minutes in the minutes of the high and the hours in the sky makes me think that everything is gonna be alright but we don’t know for sure, because we’re on the floor staring at the sky and always tryna find our lives but maybe we are not the same and maybe we are two things what is life and love without the bluest crystal diamond rings? maybe we can wait a bit and try to see what future brings but i’m waiting too long have our country with our two kings life getting too hectic, let's take it back to 09' appletizer in a glass, pretending it was fine wine there's a fine line between innocence and ignorance looking back on videos it's clear as day, it's imminent that we were bound to, bound to be stars so that we can get closer to the ones in the sky countless hours of thoughts into every single bar hope to be remembered for all of this for when i die cause this all ain't for nothing, it's not just for a laugh hope my music gets so big, i can sign some autographs and then retail them for more, making even more profit living a life so lush, nothing you do can stop it but i'll never fill the void that the past has made reminiscing back to the blissful carefree days of youth and stupidity before anyone cared about appearance and the future, how people get so scared

love’s gonna bring you down love’s gonna bring you down love’s gonna bring you down and i see, in my eyes love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down and i see it in your eyes love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down and i see it in your eyes i try my best to live wake up one morning, try my best to forgive, i’m feeling i give you all that i can give i try to eat healthy so i can outlive my enemies, extremities, special needs yeah, parentheses it’s crazy how none of us try our best to meet celebrities it's cause they come back to us, i guess there’s some bad things that we need to discuss if i told you bout it, would you see it as a plus? run a meth business, tell it back to gus nah bro fuck it, this no los pollos hermanos try my best to wake up, see a new tomorrow get him hot and ready, while he’s full the of sorrow go into his pockets there’s some money you can borrow there’s some needy bitches that you need to follow back while he’s sat on his own, reading his hardback i go off in a strop and they’re like “bro come back!” while i hear it in my ears, it’s like my personal feedback and i guess that’s me, i’m just really laid back i wouldn’t be surprised if you started selling crack because i know you crack your fingers for a snack but i really guess that i can try to cut you some slack once i’m really gone, do you think i’ll ever come back? love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down and i see it in your eyes love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down love's gonna bring you down and i see it in your eyes

feel so sick that you wanna die yeah, you feel so sick that you wanna cry but you and i, but you and i, we were meant to cry together butterfly feel so sick that you wanna die yeah, you feel so sick that you wanna cry but you and i, but you and i, we were meant to cry together butterfly where the fuck did i go? (where did he go?) it’s been 16 years but i don’t wanna come between cus life ain’t serene it’s so fucking obscene with wildest dreams, and the mildest nights and the whitest teeth, stuck with smokey spice, yeah future album coming up while it’s hot and fresh while half these people don’t know that i made this sitting at my desk at two in the morning while i should be here snoring tried to make my voice louder, so it ain’t so boring hopefully two more years and me and ryan will be touring exploring the ends and the inns and outs now i’m wilding out, yeah what it’s all about feel so sick that you wanna die yeah, you feel so sick that you wanna cry but you and i, but you and i, we were meant to cry together butterfly feel so sick that you wanna die yeah, you feel so sick that you wanna cry but you and i, but you and i, we were meant to cry together butterfly don’t even get me started on that bitch that has no melody i’ll just keep this short and sweet, just of sakes for brevity this woman nearly threw up on my shoes while they were velvety i don’t even wanna talk no more, that done fucked me mentally i wish i could run away just from my past and build my destiny someone didn’t mean that much to me when they had jealousies don’t even try to get me wrong, you’re still my enemy i could’ve realized from day one that we had no chemistry while the waves have they ebb and flows i was there, and i was stood there steadily how you gon shoot me in the back of the head like kennedy tryna ask me how it fucking went? it went dreadfully. feel so sick that you wanna cry feel so sick that you wanna die but we on the eclipse now but we on the eclipse now but we on the eclipse now but we on the eclipse now feel so sick that you wanna cry feel so sick that you wanna die but we on the eclipse now but we on the eclipse now but we on the eclipse now but we on the eclipse now turn my head around and going back to the stars it wouldn’t be an exso tape without the guitars going to the lounge so you can smoke your cigars there’s that type of pain that comes within attained by memoirs not the type of living that always bruises or scars i put my whole effort and soul back into jars so i keep it tightly sealed, fresh and clean for later so when i wake back up again and my words will be greater live my glory days of my life as a creator my words are clear and bright as day there’s no need for the translators but if you really needed yuan then i’ll speak in chinese or the coldest parts of norway, life is just such a breeze until i can’t get out the house cus there’s no front door keys so i go out of the back door and die from the freeze i wake up summer time and it’s twenty two degrees life is fucking crazy and that’s a guarantee we should all just be happy i don’t know anyone that disagrees going to honk kong and i speak the finest cantonese now let’s live our life cus the best things always come in threes

don't let it go to your head (yeah, go to your head) don't let it go to your head (go to your head) don't let it go to your head don't let it go to your head (yeah, go to your head) go to your head, wake up, good morning, go bed the never ending cycle fills up you up with the dread “that’s what say all say!” now i'm just so upset who never knew that life itself could be such a threat? walking back to school and i’m breaking such a sweat that i’m better off in bed and being all upset but i’m better off sleeping and catching up with debt with my sleep and going back and hitting reset not spending at casinos hogging wheels of the roulette type while i’m sitting in recliners having drinks, did i say that right? feeling punches with the blows, with a sense of new stability life is such a show, not a play, this a nativity making beats alone, all at home is my activity falling down a path of hyperactivity so i can understand my plans for the future in vicinity and we can go about it without damaging all the imagery coughing all the beats up like i caught a virus checking up on you, like my first name’s tyrus and making corny flows like my last name’s eilish cause now i’m hearing too much, yeah i need some silence

living on your own cus all know what it means tired of us playing cus you’re stuck in the betweens roaming the all towns cause we’re tired of old cities i’m trying my best but i’m stuck in my mid-teens imma do it like i wanna people back in town wanna deal with marijuana while i’m sitting down, kicking my feet up in bahamas i’m not going missing, this just ain’t no damn errata going on a quest, while it’s midnight in marauders suing my photographer i’m going full nirvana things are always greener on the other path of roads try to hack the game but he ain’t got the codes, now little wonder, i little wonder 'bout you life is not worth living if it ain’t even without you stuck my head in space, the king and queen i'm bound to i’m the fucking jester in your own little game while the fame and the shame just all comes with the game i’m just playing in activity, on my own acclaim i wasn’t on my own with dayexso as my stage name while i think that i’m so different we are not the same plane of life i don’t go hard with lyrics, i try to keep it tame so when the fire goes out, i don’t just keep that flame and i’m lost for words, while he’s full of shame and now that i’m far gone, there’s no one left to blame look at what you did, what our love became make me suffer so badly cause it was inhumane and now i’m in the backseat, chilling in my aeroplane while your life is like a family picture broken in the frame cus my life is an enigma and you try your best to go and you never even notice yeah you didn’t even know my life is in at home and you got nowhere to go but you didn’t even notice yeah you try your best to go but you didn’t even notice when you're living a lie (living a lie, living a lie) cus my life is an enigma and you try your best to go and you never even notice yeah you didn’t even know didn't even notice try your best to go and you didn't even notice when you're living a lie

you're just out and a bit full of- maybe gemini or like correct (i respect that) (laughing) i'm not gemini! i'm not gemini! i'm not gemini! man said i'm aguero! holding back all the tears of the evening couch corner conversation, no floating or dreaming my own mental cleaning, with the dusters inside with your own subtle patience, you either did live or you died with the twisters inside, the own thought you provide when i put on the gold, my life events were described to be, something short of a philosophy but now i’m not even sure if you wanna get so lost with me champagne colored walls what do i recall painting all the stalls downtown swallow falls pacing round the mall ringing all the calls racing down the halls changing all the laws pinging all the tours break me down to cores broke my tooth and jaw chasing underscores faking with the frauds stealing all the straws bad things come in fours talk to the inlaws champagne colored walls what do i recall painting all the stalls downtown swallow falls pacing round the mall ringing all the calls racing down the halls changing all the laws

fuck, as i'm listening back to tommy's old music seen how much i've used of it, its in my veins i'm used to it realise fuck, how old was he at greatest hits, like 17 was just like me i'm running out of time like igor but i ignore, i can be myself right don't feel like it tonight, making shit don't feel right i change so much like the drifters but all the people around me ain't seeing any difference they just see the same kid who arrived at 13, twenty one pilots shirt but i was always just a little hurt picture that, you feel like you just don't belong people in your class are giving off the vibe that you’re just wrong that's why i am the way i am to this day that's why its difficult to ever ever find my place i cover up and i just try to hide my face guess you could call it a facade without any grace i've been mining at this shit for months but its like nothin ever really comes the way that i want might seem selfish but i stumble into things that i want i need some order in my life, man i need to move on, damn but i grow every morning that i wake up and don't sleep in i'm doing great but i don't know if i be feeling if my house collapsed, bones cracked on the ceiling, shit cant compare it to the things that i've been dealing with living with no life job without a tie it’s just one of those things we can get through without tired of raising voices i can’t scream and shout but now i’m doubting my abilities, take a trip to Philippines keeping shit from me i wanna know, go and spill the beans but we stay quiet on the mic, i’m a rap machine release another single in your life it gives you dopamine caffeine without dreams in your life, sniffing coffee beans in your dreams, taking the first train to aberdeen all the things you’ve seen, makes your mind stuck in halloween guillotine, when i’m on the pedals wasting gasoline tangerine, when i’m in the summer seeing unforeseen things in my life that oughta cut me like a steel knife things are too extreme, wake me up, is this real life? put me in a fish tank when I’m swimming with the sea life living with no jealousy, with a glass of Hennessy melody on the beat, with the samples in the background i’ll never just be who i was, i can’t be dragged down put your ears on and tune in to this new sound of jazzy rap and drum breaks, it’s the best shit around whatever karma you achieve will always come back round if it’s good and you’re a king, life rewards you with a crown and if it’s all bad then you’ll look like the clown so don’t be so surprised if we laugh you out of town uhghhhghghhhhhhh they call it suburbia, and that word's perfect because it's a combination of the words suburb and utopia

feel like all my life i've lived in such a utopia getting such a fright because i've got a bad phobia of spending time and money with people that don't want know ya is there such a thing with guilt with feelings i don't owe ya? feel like all my life i've lived in such a utopia getting such a fright because i've got a bad phobia of spending time and money with people that don't want know ya is there such a thing with guilt with feelings i don't owe ya? i've been telling you for way to long it was way too hard for us to get along so i wrote this song from where i belong while you're in my dms tryna right your wrongs wake up in the morning, wash my face, what the fuck is up check yourself in your own hiding place, i can't get enough somewhat lurking at your pace, tell me, do you think you're tough looking at my hands in condition, my skin is getting rough you think that this is a utopia? you’re fuckin’ wrong takes me five fuckin' months just to make a shitty song weeks are getting tired and old and the days are getting long but once you have me by your side until i’m dead and gone over-saturated colours all in your face while you think you’re that you’re tough and putting me into place well yeah this isn’t a race, leaving thoughts with a trace so that when i’m just dead to you i don’t get replaced feel like all my life i've lived in such a utopia getting such a fright because i've got a bad phobia of spending time and money with people that don't want know ya is there such a thing with guilt with feelings i don't owe ya? feel like all my life i've lived in such a utopia getting such a fright because i've got a bad phobia of spending time and money with people that don't want know ya is there such a thing with guilt with feelings i don't owe ya? now we’re leaving beef just all to rest everyone’s upset and emotions were expressed no external thoughts or the weights just on my chest if you wanna just not see me now then be my guest cus now i’m tired, so tired i’m all possessed looking back on years and seeing how i’ve progressed but i don’t look too hard because i’m not obsessed i need swatting away because i’m just such a pest wait up for me wait up for me (wait up for me) wait up for me (yeah, wait up for me) wait up for me (just wait up for me) wait up for me (wait up for me) wait up for me (i don't wanna go) wait up for me (wait up for me, wait up for me) wait up for me (i've had time to leave) wait up for me (wait up for me) wait up i don't wanna leave, wait up for me i don't wanna go, wait up for me

(one, two, three, go) A web of lies For you and I Don’t even lie You miss the time I do too I miss the days You miss the time More than I do And I just wish I could go today I could go tonight Meet up meet up, let’s go link and meet up Maybe I can be a third wheel to your speed up I offered no and said thank you but I got stuff to clean up That whole night I suffered so badly cus i dint speak up I lost feelings so easily cus my heart was beat up My heart and soul did talk to eachother and they wanna team up I was always told, big things are coming so i just kept my knees up I held everything just back to my heart, therefore i kept my dreams up But maybe dreams are wrapped in seams because i had so much to dream for I was back to bliss, sitting next to beaches with their shores Because I will be surprised if i make it past 24 How things are going currently, living life is such a chore But then I took a break for a while, tried to open up my core tried to open up my soul there’s time to live there’s time to go living life is going slow for you go for you there’s space to grow but now it’s time to take it so slow for you all for you (yeah) i took a little breather i took a little break put your feet up and sit by the lake yeah, for the view i did it for you don’t try to stay awake it’s way motherfuckin’ late for you (go for you) all, for it’s time to leave the plain that is your own mistake take your life all smoothly and put on the brakes i need to find my chords try to wrap me round your finger but that shit won’t work no more if you would’ve taken things slowly you would’ve had much more but now you threw that chance just out the window and out the door trying hard to lose you, but you made me wash ashore didn’t dye my hair or something, i had time to go explore whenever you see me with friends, i bet your vision distorts but now we’re just sitting on the side, sipping wine in tennis courts becoming our own business people, building houses next to forts sometimes i wish that i could see what you’re thinking, a window for your thoughts i’m sure you understood me bright as day, i’m not just speaking morse doing things to see how they turn out, like a crash course cuz gemini can’t wear no gold, only silver and red quartz we’re successful and you’re not, according to your own reports i’m a reversing sample god, and i’m stealing lines with no remorse back to who i am, when i was making spices with red sauce making time and making life, making more than gretchen schwartz cleared my mind and lost my pain, but it was fully safe and was endorsed this sign of recovery was only done with gemin(eyes)

you gon open up his jaws listen to the music, pause go protect from all the cause mind is making pictures, pause with the mental it all draws grasping back just like the straws mental scramble, mind jigsaw pointing back, it’s just my flaws with the blood all on the floors going back, that’s how it was fuck yourself and that’s because i built it all on my own laws brother sister, your in-laws with the money you withdraw you better pay for all my calls you better not spit on my corpse imma tell you how it was we used to listen to the music every night because we some power in our minds, stuck with simple minded clauses i was going back to do the sauces to add some flavour hard earned labour has he worked a day in his life? does he have a woman he can call his so-called wife? with his yard burned bridges, going back to a strife better ask his bitch to clean up, and to call the midwife